With the gift of a child, many blessings ensue: smiles, hugs, and othe joys. There are other things that come that aren't so joyous... sleepless nights, screaming, sickness, sour dispositions, and so forth. Yet God has a plan even for these moments. Remember Romans 8:28? "And we KNOW that all things work together for good, to them who love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." I love God, and have accepted Him as my Saviour. I am called by Him to share the gospel across the world. Yes, all things will work out for His good and glory.
And so, when Jude wakes up at night screaming, again, needing me to comfort him, I look for God's purpose.
You know what I have found? Nighttime makes an excellent time to pray. It's quiet, there's nothing else I can do while comforting our baby, and when I need to fall asleep, it doesn't overly tax my mind and keep me awake. What a difference this has made in my attitude about the inconvenience of a child! Knowing that I can meet with God in this special way almost makes me happy to get up with Jude at night. Prayers for family, friends, and fellow missionaries make the twenty minutes I'm feeding or rocking Jude fly by, and I sigh for the lack of time for more.
As Jude grows, (and I do too), I'm looking forward to turning the disguised moments into sweet memories, just like the joyful ones. God is working, changing me into His image, teaching me that His plan is different than mine, helping me see it's about His glory.